I wrote this prayer back in Advent, but it feels about right for the last week or so. Grieving for and with those most impacted by violence, by power moving through our world in perverse ways.
The original Advent prompt word was “prepare.”
Prepare God, the weight of the world is still here. I know I was not meant to bear it all, but I still feel it. I often want to do something, anything, but am not sure what to do. And I don’t want to move just to assuage my guilt about my own comfort while others suffer in a violent world. I want to move with you, in you, through you, in your spirit, in your confidence, guided by you, in your love. Healing will not come through frantic directionless striving, but through quieting myself to listen to your voice, and through quieting the world to listen to myself, and through quieting everything to listen to the labor-pain groaning of the world. I have finite time and power and energy and gifts. I want to find what I have to offer and offer it fully. I don’t want to bear the weight of anything else. God, prepare me for the work you have for me. I am so easily distracted by people’s approval or disapproval, by respectability, by societal notions of success. Help me move, help me wait, help me be patient, help me be bold. Guide me with your wisdom. And help me learn to trust my own wisdom, the kind you’ve given me, again. Amen.